I'd rather drink out of the toilet than having holiday

I don't wanna be at home.
I can even count how many times I can cry in 1 week...
I don't want to cry,
but I can't find a way to express my feeling.
If I want to play the piano,
mum for sure say cannot,
fine.
I cannot lock myself in the room,
fine.
I don't want to go out from my room with a certain reason!!!
Anytime I just step out from my room,
I'll for sure get scolded.
WTF...
Still need to deal with that stupid brother,
FINE...
I'd thought dad not being at home will be at least a good thing,
turns out the same...
But I'm happy,
cause my brother got only 2As...
and other Cs...
Instead my mum wanted to buy him a laptop,
for what???
so he could ruin my life,
so he could show off,
so he could ruin another laptop like he did to mine last time...
Ya right.
Wow...
I can't wait till my dad come back home,
and gives me something to do,
he always ask me to do things,
by that time,
I'll even forget about all these thing.